Thuja Occidentalis, Arborvitae – release from self-sabotage
“The complicity [between victim and perpetrator] implies a kind of contact of sin, with both parties falling short of God’s command. Perpetrators who harm others are obviously sinners, but so are the people they harm, who may well believe they are being justly punished by a higher power. The wrong done to victims is due to the wrong they have done in the eyes of God. To make matters worse, the twisted syntax of the victim-perpetrator bond condones domination, violence, aggression, and murder as expressions of divine retribution. Those who enact the will of God in violent ways are as righteous as those who suffer violence, because the bond prescribes and legitimates both roles. A deal that sanctifies violence and guarantees the righteous vindication of its victims is hard to beat.”
John Lamb Lash, Not in His Image
Glorification of the ultimate act of self-sabotage is the centre piece of Christianity. Every other creature on this planet uses whatever defense mechanisms it has instinctively, without hesitation. The insidious indoctrination into self-sabotage turns victim-hood into such a virtue that even the perpetrators pretend to be victims. It takes force to break the victim-perpetrator bond and the victim cannot command this force while under the spell of self-sabotage.
The Spell of Self-Sabotage
The spell of self-sabotage has become an epigenetically normalised pattern of gene expression for most native Europeans. Perhaps it has for other races too, but I can’t speak for them. It is evident in the proliferation of harmful addictions, auto-immune conditions and patterns of learned helplessness. For sure, self-sabotage is not the only problem, but it is a problem that is entirely within our gift to resolve, freeing us up to deal with the other problems we face.
In German, Gift means poison. When the ‘gift’ comes from the Planetary Animal Mother, it can bring life or death, depending on amount and timing. The English word ‘poison’ is Latin, but the Indo-European equivalent is ‘virus’. In this sense, mild childhood viruses could be considered as the gift of the Aeonic Mother, strengthening and informing the physical sense of self, so that we can deal with predators we might encounter later in life. At the most basic level the immune system is part of the mind-body system that interfaces with the external world. Its key role is in binary self-identification, ‘me/not me’ so that it can initiate appropriate responses to invaders. Vaccinating a newborn before it has developed a bond with its mother or any self-identity sets up a potentially life-long dependency on others for identity and validation. These forlorn creatures are like the forest dwellers of Narnia, living in fear and locked into the perpetual winter of the soul under a spell they cannot break. They do not even know they are under a spell.
If you are reading this, you have sufficient wherewithal to break the spell, but you can’t do it without the gift; the poison of the Scorpion Mother. I took the poison and broke the spell.
The Gift of Arborvitae
Thuja Occidentalis is also know as White Cedar and Arborvitae, the Tree of Life. It has a long history of use in Native American medicine and in Traditional Chinese Medicine, where it is known as Thuja Orientalis. It is not considered to be a native of Europe, which seems odd. Some fossilized remains from before the last ice age have been identified in Poland, perhaps the cold wiped them out.
I felt the call of Arborvitae last year and bought several small trees and planted them, so that they can become ‘native’, as home-grown medicine is always more effective. I was delighted to discover that one of the oldest known Thujas in North America is The Witch Tree on the shores of Lake Superior in Minnesota, where my husband is from. It is said to date from 1731 and embodies the determination and resilience of the Ojibwe people, who call it Little Spirit Cedar.
I have tried a Thuja homeopathic remedy before with Riley, for her vaccine induced allergies. I didn’t notice any results at the time. Since then I’ve realized that not all homeopathic remedies are authentic. I also think that in many cases we have strayed so far from our natural environments and are so poisoned, that subtle changes in the mind-body system are not sufficient to bring about sustainable changes by themselves. Nonetheless, something about Thuja stuck in my mind and after Riley died and Freya came into our lives, I decided to give it another go.
We adopted Freya, via SOS Dobermann España. She was found abandoned in Murcia and. although relatively healthy, she was malnourished, hunch-backed and we had been unable to prevent her from being vaccinated for everything possible, including rabies, before we got her. She is very sweet and loving, but would get over-excited and manic too easily and had terrible separation anxiety. Over the past few years, I’ve noticed the same tendencies in people’s children who have been vaccinated. It seems as though the ability to handle strong emotions has been impaired and that this induces fear.
A month or so ago I made a tincture with leaves from the Thujas and local orujo.
The tincture turned emerald green and had a delicious fresh=sweet perfume, a little like vanilla-infused eucalyptus.
As the leaves transformed into tincture I thought about vaccinations and realised that Dean and I needed this medicine too. We had both been vaccinated in childhood and although we had had nowhere near the number of vaccines as given to children today, our innate healing abilities were still damaged by this assault. The more I’ve looked into the history of medicine, Rockefeller medicine that is, and the profit-not-people pharmaceutical industry, the more appalled and disgusted I become and all the more determined to stay away at any cost. The detailed, factual account of the history of vaccines is far from the Disney-esque version preferred by the medical profession and the list of vaccine ingredients reads like something out of a horror movie.
The vaccine issue sign-posted the way to Arborvitae, but the underlying issue of self-sabotage is far deeper. I have worked to resolve many of my self-sabotage tendencies, but the unconscious programmes are very difficult to shift. These would show up for me as accidents or sudden illnesses before events or activities that were important to me, or that feeling of hard-grinding gears when things I really want to happen aren’t working out. This is not how PAM intends us to live and I’ve had plenty of experience of things working out with dream-like ease, but the correlation between intensity of desire and resistance was baffling.
I took a small amount of Arborvitae tincture twice a day for three days and it had me flat-out and spaced-out for the whole time. This is the active ingredient, thujone, at work. By the end of the three days I was aware of the depth of the self-sabotage spell, how vaccines intensify that spell and that the spell is broken simply be seeing it and making a different choice than I would have done when under the spell. I am now able to feel more light-hearted about problems solving, especially about the things that are important to me and it feels as though I’m functioning at a more optimised level. I am also noticing how I am reading my own DNA and what this means in terms of Gaian Alchemy, on which I’ll write more another time.
Freya also had the tincture for three days, about half the amount I took and she just slept a bit more than usual. By the end of the three days she was much less manic, much calmer and the extremes of her emotional responses have evened out. When she plays with the other dogs it’s not escalating like it was before and she is listening better. She seems happier and more relaxed – and even sweeter than ever, which hardly seems possible. Note that a dog, like all non-human animals, cannot commit self-sabotage, because they cannot deny their instincts. Arborvitae works on the physical body and it is the effect on the physical body that generates the psychological change in humans, the release from self-sabotage. This psychological effect is redundant in other animals and fundamental in us.
Dean took the tincture too. He was very tired for one day, but did not report any other sensations or insights.. However, he immediately broke out in a cold sore, which showed an interaction with the herpes simplex virus. More on this in another post.
Thujone – the Poison
Thujone, the active ingredient in Thuja/Arborvitae, is also found in wormwood, coriander, tarragon and many other herbs and spices. Thujone gives absinthe its mind-altering properties. It is toxic if taken in large quantities and should not be taken in any form for long periods.
Many studies provide evidence of its beneficial effects:
The pharmacological/allopathic approach focuses on thuja’s effectiveness in alleviating symptoms, not the underlying causes. The homeopathic approach takes underlying causes into consideration, but is less widely researched. No one seems to be looking at the function of viruses within the broader context, how some can be beneficial and others have mutated into harmful forms. Thuja, Arborvitae is one of the most powerful tinctures I’ve used and I think it has much more to teach.